Tuesday, December 31, 2013

2013

"What do I look like? The Wizard of Oz? You need a brain?
You need a heart? Go ahead, take mine. Take everything I have" ~ Stephanie Meyer


Truth....


Pain.....


Death......


Heartbreak....


Dreams.....Nightmares...


Anger.....


Grief.......


Courage.....


Letting Go.......


Saying Goodbye...........


Forgiving............


May 2014 be a year of healing, of friendship, of family, of heart, of soul....and most importantly...of love.

I wish everybody love.

In the end, let love triumph. For hate is too heavy a burden to bear...

Happy New Year everyone.

Sunday, December 29, 2013

Symbols

"And you really will have to make it through that violent, metaphysical, symbolic storm. No matter how metaphysical or symbolic it might be, make no mistake about it; it will cut through flesh like a thousand razor blades. People will bleed there, and you will bleed too. Hot, red blood. You'll catch that blood in your hands, your own blood and the blood of other. And once the storm is over, you won't remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won't even be sure, in fact, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm you won't be the same person who walked in..." ~ Haruki Murakami

This year instead of getting the usual handbags that I usually buy, I decided to get something else.
2013 has been a rough year to say the least for me...and somehow I managed to survive it. So I decided to get something to symbolize what matters most in my life.

I decided to get a charm bracelet and so far these are the charms that I have managed to buy:-

This symbolizes me and Airiel and the bond we share. He is my best friend, my son, my companion and the salve to my wounds. He is...my heart and soul


This symbolizes family and the love I have for them. My family has been with me through thick and thin and through all the ups and downs I have been through and I am reminded of how they will always be there for me no matter what when I see this. 

And this charm signifies the most important moment in my life. The moment I became a mother to Airiel and the late Akif. 

I am still looking for the perfect charm to symbolise Akif. And will share it with you readers once I have found them.

I will never take this bracelet off...

Wednesday, December 25, 2013

Bunga...


Tak usah ditanya
Mengapa ku pilih
Bunga yang mewangi
Terlihat berseri
Yang tak akan nampak di matapun
Berwarni dari lain lain
Segan untuk aku sapa
Walau ada maksud yang ku sembunyi

Pernah ku mencuba terima seadanya
Sayang ia selalu calarkan sudut hatiku
Hingga lelah jiwaku dikecewa
Yang tak mungkin berpaling kembali
Namun ku yakinkan hati Tuhan pasti beri gantinya

Ku mohonkan yang indah padamu
Untuk ku tatap menawar resahku
Kekal aku disitu harungi cinta
Dan aku pohonkan yang baik
Bersantun kata kata tentang cinta
Bicarakan rindu padaku mengharum selamanya

Pernah ku mencuba terima seadanya
Sayang ia selalu calarkan sudut hatiku
Hingga lelah jiwaku dikecewa
Yang tak mungkin berpaling kembali
Namun ku yakinkan hati Tuhan pasti beri gantinya...



Monday, December 23, 2013

Peace..

"If you love someone, tell them today. If you're sorry, don't be ashamed to say it today.
If you're not happy with your life, make a change today. 
Life is short and you may never have the chance again" ~ Idza


Suatu hari nanti, pasti akan bercahaya
Pintu akan terbuka, kita akan bersama
Di situ kita lihat bersinarlah hakikat
Debu jadi permata, hina jadi mulia...

I was visiting Akif the other day and managed to take this picture. I just thought it was beautiful and wanted to share it with my readers.

Have a good week ahead. May Allah bless all of us.

Let the healing begin...may this peace last....

Thursday, December 19, 2013

Somewhere Over the Rainbow


"As far as you can avoid it , do not give grief to anyone. Never inflict your rage on another. If you hope for eternal rest, feel the pain yourself; but don't hurt others" ~ Omar Khayyam




Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
There's a land that I dreamed of once in a lullaby

Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue
And the dreams that you dare to dream really do come true

Someday I'll  wish upon a star
And wake up when the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
High above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Then why of why can't I...

Monday, December 9, 2013

School Holiday Project

Hey readers,

Happy monday. Honestly, my end of the year mood (nak berenti keje bukak spa kind of mood) is here.

Anyways, to keep airiel occupied I have lined up some projects for him to do.



Airiel, aspiring Picasso

Airiel, the tree topper 

 Airiel, the entertainer
Airiel, the companion...

Airiel, marionette maker 

Airiel, mosaic enthusiast..

Pinjaman Allah yg terindah...Alhamdulillah..

Friday, December 6, 2013

Reminiscing

Dearest Akif,

Mama is doing some work at the Dr. Cafe in Citta mall right now. It brings back memories.

Mama used to come here everyday after you were diagnosed in the mornings. Staying at home was unbearable, it made mama think too much. Your brother Airiel was off to school.  Your father had another life, his work somewhere else, Nenda and Bonda off to work. Everybody was gone doing their daily thing...

Mama stopped mama's life for you. The doctors said Mama need to lay easy on the stress triggers in Mama's life for your sake. And work was definitely one of them so Mama did not go to work at all.

Mama would drag mackie, and a novel or the Holy Quran and read it silently, watching the people, the world and time fly by.

The people that work here knows Mama's order by heart, and Mama secretly feels that they might even have a soft spot for mama up to this day, seeing mama so forlorn every morning here for 2 and a half months without fail.

Mama was alone, and yet mama was not. Mama listened and waited for your kicks. Mama spoke to you, cried to you, laughed with you.

And now you are gone, gone to that beautiful place mama would see in mama's dreams. A place mama couldn't enter even in a dream. Mama is always sitting outside. Can mama ever step inside?
Mama hopes to be able to one day. Mama owes you a hug and a kiss.

It is one of the main reasons that keeps mama close to the faith. Mama is scared that if mama is not good enough of a muslim, mama will never get to see you or stay with you. That thought cripples mama with fear and one which mama knows mama cannot bear with if it happens.

Bear with me Akif. One day mama hopes to not feel like mama's heart is breaking into a million pieces when mama thinks of you. Mama hopes to be able to think of you and smile instead of breaking down into heaps of tears. Mama hopes to be able to set the memory of you free, so that mama can also be free of this grief.

One day Akif, one day. But that day is not today...

Wednesday, December 4, 2013

An Eye for an Eye anyone?


"Like all strong people, she suffered always from a measure of loneliness; she was a marginal outsider, a secret infidel of some sort." ~ Anne Rice

Hi readers,

After all that fuss for an eye creme, I have decided to purchase 2 items for my eyes.

 Garnier brightening eye roll on. RM20 or something like that. Steal, complete steal


Aubrey Eye Cream. RM128 for this bottle.

I shall update you guys on the progress of my eyebags after 4-6 months of using this.

Speaking of eyes, the power for my specs and contact lenses have gone up!! 1000 over weii. I am seriously thinking of consulting a doc about whether I should do lasix.

Will update you guys on that as well. I am like totally legally blind without my specs now. Apa pun tak nampak. Huhu

Ok, have a fun rest of the week.

Monday, December 2, 2013

9 months

"Nothing is unfixable, except the fact that you're gone" ~ Rick Riordan



The chronicles of Akif's journey is here

Wednesday, November 27, 2013

Final Fantasy XV - AWESOMENESSS!!!

Hey readers,

I am so excited.



This is just awesome.

I cannot wait, cannot wait.

DROOL

Monday, November 25, 2013

Beauty Products to Include in My Routine - Eye Cream

Hey readers,

How was your weekend?

I just turned 30 in October and sort off realised I needed to take care of myself more. I plan on including an eye cream in my daily regime from now on. Lambat kan? I know some of my friends memang dah pakai sejak teens lagi, but eye creams are just so expensive and I do not notice anything terrible under my eyes, its just mata selalu bengkak sekarang especially when I cry missing Akif.

Anyways, I have narrowed it down to a few brands, so lets see:-

1. This is of course tops the list. I am an avid SKII user since its the only brand that has suited my skin so far. I use SKII for my daily skincare.

SKII Skin Signature Eye Cream

The price tag is around RM3++ -RM4++ for 15grams so it is one of the pricier ones in the market. 

2. Kiehl's Eye Creams




This one got me really confused sbb eye cream dia byk jenis gile. Price range in between RM1++ to around RM200 max. 

3. Sulwhasoo Rejuvenating Eye Cream

I am kind of partial against asian brands because I just think they would suit asian skin better, and Sulwhasoo is a rising star in Malaysia. Some of you my readers have highly recommended this product.


Just like SKII, Sulwhasoo's eye cream is not cheap. RM4++ for 25ml bottle. But cheaperlah compared to SKII whose price is just about the same for 15grams kan

4. Murad Eye Creams 


I am not that familiar with the Murad range of products but there have been some good reviews on them. These costs around RM2++ for a 15ml bottle.

5. Chanel Sublimage Ultimate Regeneration Eye Cream


The name is a handful ehh? Well at RM7++ for a 15gram bottle, the price packs a wallop for your wallet as well. I am not sure about spending this much money for an eye cream.

6. Dior Eye Creams

 Satin Revitalising Eye Cream - RM4++ for 15 ml

Hydra Life Youth Essential Hydrating Eye Cream - RM2++ for 15 ml
I am quite intrigued with the hydra life essential hydrating eye cream. There have been a lot of good reviews for this one.

7. Garnier Eye Products




One of my readers highly recommended Garnier and said that she has been a faithful user for years and have seen her eyebags literally disappear! And best of all, these eye products from Garnier costs between RM30-RM50 only! Awesome..

8. Skinfood Salmon Eye Cream

This was also recommended by a reader and I am seriously considering this. RM1++ sounds like a reasonable price tag and reviews have been stellar online.

Any more recommendations from my readers are deeply appreciated if you have used any of these products. 

Have a good week ahead!

Monday, November 18, 2013

Missing Akif

"Dare I say I miss him? I do. I miss him. I still see him in my dreams. They are nightmares mostly, but nightmares tinged with love. Such is the strangeness of the human heart" - Yann Martel


There are good days, some days are bad. And there are those terrible days. Today is one of those terrible days I guess.

You just wake up and realise that something is missing, something you have lost no matter what you do.

I run around and try to keep myself busy so I can stop thinking about it. And yes, when I am busy I do not think, but I still FEEL it. I feel that void all the time. That knife which is permanently stuck in me, twisting and twisting around in my gut.

I see pictures of babies on facebook and that knife just goes in deeper and deeper until I can't breathe and my vision dims because of my tears...I blink them away. Does that make sense?

Driving and being stuck in a jam is the worst. A lot of free time ends up with an idle mind and then I start thinking. What else do we humans think about than about the things that we do not or cannot have? 

I know Akif is in a better place, I know he misses me as much as I miss him. I know that.

I just wish I could hug him, cuddle him. I wish I could kiss him.. I wish I could scold him when he is naughty. I wish I could see him crawl, hear him say his first word, see his first steps. I would I could perpetually worry about him like I worry about his big brother Airiel...but some things are just not meant to be...

It is a daily struggle for me. A struggle I know all mothers who have lost a child go through.

Akif, you are not with Mama here but you are in Mama's heart, all the time...

Maybe tomorrow will be a better day...


Friday, November 15, 2013

Groupon Deal - Holistics Esthetics Solaris Dutamas


Hello Readers,

It's a Friday!!

Yesterday I went for a quick rest and relax at a spa in Solaris Dutamas, Holistics Esthetics in Solaris Dutamas. There was a groupon for RM 38 where you will get a 1 hour 45 mins hot stone and back massage. So I decided to give it a try.

The masseuse was a Malay and she had strong fingers. I love my massages strong and absolutely loved it. There was pain, but man...it was GOOD pain and I just told her to keep going. She touches and smoothes out the knots in your back, your shoulder blades, your neck.

You feel absolutely refreshed after the massage.

Awesome.

As usual, everytime I enjoy a massage, I end up buying their packages la kan. So I ended buying a mixture of 2 of their signature massages, the hot stone massage that I tried and their signature wax massage (where they melt specially made moisturizing wax and massage you with it).

Haiyaaa. Terjebak.

Anyways, they also have other branches in KL and one in Mont Kiara. Do give it a try.

The address and contact details of the Solaris Dutamas branch is as below:-

Holistic Esthetics 
A3-1-7 Solaris Dutamas
Jalan Dutamas 1
50480 Kuala Lumpur

Tel : 03-62078388 / 03-6205 4288

Have a good weekend ahead.

Monday, November 11, 2013

Books - Recent Haul

Hello readers,

Airiel's concert last Saturday went without a hitch. I managed to keep it all in but when Airiel started reciting his pantun, looking tall and grown up on the stage, I completely lost it and the waterworks started. Haishh, the perils of being a mom.

Anyways, on Sunday I went for a spa, mani pedi thing. Some me time to relax. The spa I bought an I love discounts coupon was in Amcorp mall. It was not the best experience I ever had spa wise but there was one thing good about going there, Book Xcess opened in Amcorp.

And well, look at the haul.

Drool....

Can't wait to read these.

Work awaits. Have a good rest of the week.

Love...

Friday, November 8, 2013

My most trusted online shop for shoes

"So he tasted the deep pain that is reserved only for the strong, just as he had tasted for a little while a deep happiness..." ~ F. Scott Fitzgerald

Hi readers,

Sorry for the lack of updates, I have been busy and frankly, nothing much to update.

Anyways, I just want to share with you my new fave place I am going to for my shoe fetish issues haha.

I usually never buy shoes online because :-

(i) Usually online shops carry shoes with kulit babi and not tell us muslim customers, so so annoyed when this happens;

(ii) Shoes do not usually last; and

(iii) They do NOT look like what it looks like in the pics!

But I found a place which is awesome even though its online. And its local!

Hello Christy Ng.

The shoes are sky high (my kinda shoes) and are uber comfortable. I recently bought one on sale for RM180!!

Service is super fast and I got my package the very next day after my order.

Aren't these soo pretty!!!

Ok now, have a good weekend!!

Thursday, October 24, 2013

Please Help Syria

Hi Readers,

This is a post to help and reach out to Syria.

Ahmad Sani Araby, a noted Malaysian with MAPIM who often flies to Palestine and Syria is flying off to Syria soon.

He needs funds to give out help to the people in Syria.

So far, his FB campaign has only managed to collect RM510 which is less than sufficient.

Please help and donate to his cause so as to enable him to help those in need.

You can follow him at his page and follow his updates here.

There are also other pages:-

(i)   www.tabungsyria.com; and

(ii) MAPIM's account no. - 15400-1880630425 (Al-Rajhi Bank)

Even RM10 or RM5 is better than nothing. It can help feed a child or a family.

Please help.

Please also help share this blog post on your wall so your friends can see it and help.

Thank you.

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

God Must Have Spent A Little More Time on You...


And I'm trying hard to figure out
Just how I ever lived without
The warmth of your smile
The heart of child
That's deep inside
It leaves me purified...

Mama loves you Airiel. More than anything...

Tuesday, October 22, 2013

Groupon - Embrace Beauty Spa

Hi Readers,

Sorry for being quiet for a while. I had a busy week in Mars and some other places for Aidiladha. How was your Aidiladha holidays? Hope it went well and you had a meaningful sacrifice.

This is not the purpose of my post today. I wanted to share with you another pleasant experience I had with another Groupon massage deal. It was RM38 for a 3 hour spa at Embrace Beauty Spa which consists of:-

(i)   Herbal drink ( I didn't get to enjoy this, I was fasting huhu);

(ii)  A 20 min hot blanket treatment (kind of like a sauna but under a blanket);

(iii) A 20 min detox body scrub;

(v) A 20 min hydrobath in a jacuzzi;

(vi) A 45 min body massage;

(vii) Ear candling; and

(viii) Hand paraffin treatment.

A bargain is an understatement right?

I bought the package for 2 which totals to about RM70 for 2 and brought Bonda along.

What I loved about the place was the 45 min massage. It was strong. It was a memorable massage compared to other spas I have been to. The therapists were friendly.

This was also the first time I did ear candling. What they did was light up some cone shaped thing and put it in your ear. Apparently the therapist told me that its good to stabilize the air in your ear and stuff. Oh well, what the heck. It felt awesome.

The jacuzzi treatment was also great, although going into a hot tub with Bonda was slightly arkward hahaha.

A 3 hour bliss experience I would say.

And, we had such a good time, that...you guessed it. We bought a package. Haiyaaa...

We bought 6 treatments of all the above for RM546. So that totals to about only RM91 per treatment. Apakah? It is out of this world.

Check it out ok readers? The link to its website can be found here.

Embrace Beauty
40-1 Block D, Zenith Corporate Park
Jln SS7/26 Kelana Jaya
47301 Petaling Jaya
Selangor Darul Ehsan

Tel : 03-78870983/0125570983

Have a good week ahead.



Thursday, October 10, 2013

Heart...



"If all else perished, and he remained, I should still continue to be; and if all else remained, and he were annihilated, the universe would turn to a mighty stranger" ~ Emily Bronte


Monday, October 7, 2013

Groupon Deals - Bellisia Esthetics & Wellness Therapy


"Just for the record, the weather today is partly suspicious which chances of betrayal" 
~ Chuck Palahniuk

Hi Readers,

How is your Monday? I am rushing work but am trying to make time for this post.

I have to make some comments on the Groupon Deals which I have bought recently. This time it was a mani pedi groupon deal.

I bought a mani pedi groupon deal for RM60 + for 2 mani padi. I brought Bonda along as my partner in crime.

Verdict?

Location : Located on the 2nd floor of Tropicana City Mall opposite the Creative Nail Boutique which I frequent. So it is convenient with ample parking.

Ambiance : The place, truth be told was small. It can only fit only 2 people for mani pedi at one time.

The Mani Pedi itself : I loved it!! I mean, minus how small the place was, the mani padi service was top notch. We had buffing for no extra charge, the massage on my arms and legs was good. And the buffing was one of the better ones I have had and I have been to a lot of mani pedi places ok? And the plus was also the manicurists' service. They were uber friendly and we were chatting away in no time ( I know this may be a minus to some people out there, they prefer not to chat but I loved this kind of service) .

It impressed me so much that me and Bonda ended up buying a package for ourselves to come next time. There is a promotion currently. Buy a mani pedi package worth more than RM300 and get a free OPI hand lotion.

The facebook page of Bellisia can be found here.

The listing for Bellisia in Tropicana City Mall can be found here.

Alright readers.

Have a good week ahead.

Love

Idza

Wednesday, October 2, 2013

Run for Gaza - Boycott Israel Updates 2013

"I'm not sure what we're running from. Nobody. Or the future. Fate. Growing up
Getting Old. Picking up the pieces. As if running we won't have to get on with our lives" 
~ Chuck Palahniuk 

Hi readers,

My next run is for a cause that is very close to my heart. Palestine.

I am participating in a 10km run for Gaza.

Almost all proceeds from this run will donated to Gaza. If you are not a runner and do not intend to run, you can just register and donate the proceeds to Gaza.

You do not even have to run, you can just walk and spend some time with your family.

There is also a 3km and 5km fun family run.

You can go to the hooha website and register. Links below:-


Hooha run for gaza link :- http://home.hooha.asia/gazarun-2013.aspx

Untukmu Gaza facebook page :- https://www.facebook.com/UntukmuGaza?fref=ts


Aisha, Ummi is doing this one for you.

Thanks for the outpouring of support via emails and pm to me. From the bottom of my heart, I thank you.

God bless.


Monday, September 30, 2013

Running...

Hi readers,

We are all running from something, don't you agree?

I completed my first marathon this Sunday. Alhamdulillah.

People look at my small frame and say to me, 'Can you do it?'. I have never been a runner. Heck, for a long while, the only time I would sweat is when I went for saunas, hahaha. I am not exactly a fit person. For a while I was so discouraged. But I woke up one day realising, how many times have life beat me down and I have picked myself up?

The Runatics y'all - 21 km Alhamdulillah

Airiel so proud of mama...

If I can do this, I can do anything!! And yes, I have a lot of plans on what to do next. 

Running I find is very calming, you zone out everything else and just concentrate on your pace and the music that you hear.

But while I ran, one thing was constant in my mind. My kids.

Airiel, Akif. Mama ran because of you. Thank you for being present in Mama's life.

You are Mama's strength.

Remember readers, you can do ANYTHING you want in this life. Don't let anybody tell you otherwise. You can also SURVIVE anything. I have. I have survived everything a wife, a woman and a mother should never go through, all before the age of 30.

Be strong, be inspired. Be BRAVE. Have a good week ahead readers. 

Friday, September 27, 2013

The Worst Time...

"Everybody was sorry. Sorry was easy. Sorry was for suckers" ~ Gretchen McNeil

A reader emailed me asking, what is the worst time for me in a day, when you get sad and remember all these things that have happened, when do you miss Akif the most?

There are a few times in a day basically. I wake up everyday and the first 5 minutes of waking up, I feel this amazing void and realise that something in my life is missing. But as soon as I am fully awake I am okay. It is just the moment just before that, the few minutes before consciousness sets in, that is the worst. Airiel makes a point of waking me up with a kiss every day and he makes me feel so much better. Thank you Allah for letting him be present in my life.

And then whenever I drive. Yupp, we Malaysians spend so much time on the road kan? Whenever I drive alone my mind just drifts. I dread driving these days. I am reminded of how I drove myself bleeding to the hospital with Nenda and Airiel on her lap, crying. Things like that, you just can't forget. Sigh

And lastly, those moments before I drift to sleep. Always the hardest. Always...

I hope I have answered her questions. She recently lost her twin brother and was finding it hard to cope. No one seemed to understand her grief. I am so sorry for your loss...

Happy Friday and have a good weekend readers. Wish me luck for my marathon this Sunday!!

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

Hammam Spa, Publika

"May you get exactly what you want, and live long enough to regret it" ~ Sherrilyn Kenyon


Hi readers,

I now make a point to pamper myself every 2 or 3 weeks. Drop everything, work and all and just make a point to pamper myself because health is very important. I learnt that while you may bend over backwards for people around you, they will not necessarily do the same when you need them to. So over anything else, you need to take care of yourself, because in the end the only person you can rely on is yourself. I thank God, I have the best and most supportive family ever. Nenda, Atok, Bonda, Maksu and Airiel have been a solid and stable support system for me.

Anyways, back to pampering oneself. I bought a cheap package that was on offer when Hammam Spa was just about to open in Publika. The 'Emperor's Concubine' Package. It comes in sets of 3 treatments per package. The treatment was just about 2 hours and 30 mins. I brought Bonda along just before raya.

The package consists of the Hammam & Gommage followed by a massage with aromatic oils of your choice.

The Hammam & Gommage which is unique to Hammam Spa, is something completely out of this world. Let me warn you if you are shy about your body, then this treatment is going to give you heart palpitations, because they strip you BARE and SCRUB you clean EVERYWHERE (and I mean everywhere). But I LOVED it. My 'scrubber' was this Turkish woman by the name of Nadya. The only conversation we had was her asking 'Pain?' or 'No pain?' as she was scrubbing me clean.

What shocked me was the amount of dead skin that actually came of my body. It was promptly collected into a metal bucket, shown to me and then thrown away. A type of soap was applied to my body afterwards, and you are also given a hairwash as well.

I had a 70 min massage afterwards which was not that impressive to me as it didn't really leave a lasting impression but maybe its just my personal preference. Bonda said it was a good massage for her.

I would definitely sign up for their Hammam & Gommage packages after this. It is such a wonderful experience.

You can look up Hammam Spa at their facebook page here.

No pictures in this post as I was not allowed to take photos.

Have a great week ahead!

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

Mama's Rock


Terima kasih Allah kerana memberikan pinjaman yang terindah ini.

Thank you Airiel for being in Mama's life. Without you, Mama will not be able to survive.

This is LOVE.

Then, now and forevermore...

Have a good week ahead readers...

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

The Clock is Ticking..

For the life of me I am bad in maths.

I can't count to save my life. Maybe that explains my current profession.

But there is an automatic clock, calculator in my head. For instance I know for a fact without counting that Akif passed away exactly 220 days ago. Just like that. Isn't that the weirdest thing?

I remember almost photographically what happened on the day he died. What I ate for breakfast that day. (Actually I did not eat, I drank tea). What I was wearing when I drove to the hospital. That Nenda was crying with Airiel on his lap. What I was chatting about with the nurses in my room. Akif on a monitor. Doctors coming in and out. Younger doctors fascinated by Akif's condition asking me all sorts of questions (you can obviously tell by now what he suffered from is very rare).

Me being transferred on to a bed, wheeled to the operating room. They stopped by in front to let me see Nenda and Airiel. Nenda still crying. Me talking to Akif about fighting to the end before being wheeled in. Feeling his final kick.The operation, the doctors taking Akif away.

Me shivering in the recovery room. Pediatricians holding my hand telling me they are doing everything they can to save Akif. That Akif is a strong little fighter. That kind lady doctor pediatrician holding my hand as she told me Akif did not make it. Bonda coming in asking me about funeral arrangements.

Every single detail committed to memory photographically forever in my mind. Etched.

They say you are too painful to remember. But to me, you are just too beautiful to forget.

I miss you very much. Every day. Till we meet again, my little one.

Wednesday, September 4, 2013

Awesome deals on I Love Discounts

Hey readers,

I am excited about a few deals I saw on I Love Discounts a couple of days back. I bought 2 items for myself.

I bought a Liquid Foundation by Anna Sui via this deal : - http://www.ilovediscounts.my/Deals/August-Anna-Sui-Liquid-Foundation-Cheek-Color-RM101/Catalog




Its a steal.

Ohh, and when I was buying my dior face stuff the other day, the salesperson was trying to recommend their Dior BB cream.

Apparently I am quite behind in this BB cream trend. Now there is even a CC cream and god knows what else.

So when I saw this Missha BB Cream on sale at I Love Discounts, I decided to try it out. I looked up the brand online and apparently its quite reputable. Its at this link :- http://www.ilovediscounts.my/deals/August-Missha-BB-Cream-RM66

Also a steal.

I Love Discounts is powered by Dealmates.

Click and shop away!!

Have a good the rest of the week.

Friday, August 30, 2013

My Top 5 Most Addictive Mobile Games

Hey guys,

Its been a while since I wrote. I have been busy up to my neck with work and was in Court almost every day this week.

Anyways, I have been playing all these games on my phone. I have 2, an android and an iphone. So I have games on both these platforms which I am obsessed with right now. These are my top 5.

5. Dragon Bane

I would be going too far to say its an RPG you know what I mean? But its really fun and passes the time. It has a cool multiplayer slot where you can fight with other fighters at certain times, called Events.

You level up, train, improve your armor and skills and go on quests given by characters in the game.



You go to taverns and goss and search for new companions to join your party as the game progresses. Its pretty cool.

4. Castle Story

Fancy having your own kingdom right in your mobile phone? Hehe. This is a really cool game. You build your kingdom from scratch, trade with other places. Fulfill quests.



Super fun

3. Dragon Story

I love this game! You get to breed and build a dragon city all by yourself. You start off with normal dragons and then have more rare dragons as time passes when you cross-breed them.

The dragons can go on quests for you to get special rare items you need, you can trade the dragons you breed at the trading portal in the game.




The possibilities are endless. Absolutely addictive.

2. Candy Crush

Who for the love of God, does not play Candy Crush? You have to love this game. The object is simple and depends on the stage you're on. Clear the Jelly! or get a certain highscore in 40 moves or something like that.




An absolute must play for those long waiting times in Court!

1. Fish Island SEA

I am absolutely obsessed with this addictive game. And so is Airiel by the way, although I must say it is not game for small kids.

 






As you can see, this is NOT a joke. This a dead serious, sexy, bona fides, serious fishing game. It has 600 over types of fish to catch, numerous locations, and hundreds of special items to help you on your quest to become the ultimate angler!! Ok maybe not so serious in light of the panda outfit, hahaha.

Catch pretty fish to sell them for money, or put them in your aquarium for special perks! You have daily quests and location quests and there is a special set of fishes for each location which you complete and get special items to move you along!.

See how obsessed I am! Haha.

Alright readers. Enough rambling for Friday. Work awaits. Hugss.

P.S - 1. I do not own these pictures and they are credited to their respective owners; and

         2. Warning, these games are extremely addictive. Download at your OWN risk.