Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Korean songs and their beautiful lyrics

You're Leaving Me

It can come to us
I didn't know
That separation could come
Maybe my love wasn't enough
Maybe it was lacking
I'm sorry for everything
But telling me to live as someone who doesn't know you
Telling me to go meet other people
The reality of your words
Has not sunk into me yet
You're leaving me...
How can you leave me?
Don't do this
Look at my sadness
What do you want me to do with this regret?
I want to turn back time
Don't leave me
I miss you so much that my heart will explode
I'm left alone like this
Buy you are coldly frozen up
Why aren't those words sinking in?
You're leaving me..
How can you leave me?
I could have given you everything by now
I was going to make you happy and carefree
My heart hurts
I miss you so much
Maybe if I wait like this, you'll return...
I didn't know I would be alone again
I stupidly thought you would be the last one in my life
Don't do this please...I really love you
I was going to make you happy and carefree
I want to turn back time
Don't leave me..
I miss you so much that my heart will explode

This is the lyrics to this Korean song sung by Kim Bum Soo titled 'You're leaving me'. Honestly I am fascinated by the lyrics and the beautiful vocals of this singer. His songs fascinate and move me at the same time.

The video clip from youtube is credited to its owner. Give it a listen and tell me what you think. Go K-POP!!!

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

2010..its trials and tribulations

2010 was a challenging year...

Airiel's numerous hospitalisations...

Marriage issues between Aries and I which rocked our marriage to its very core..

My sister and her health problems...

The list goes on...

But a person does not really know how strong they really are until being strong is the only choice they have, and that is what I learned about myself and our family this year.

I realised I am  a lot stronger than I ever thought I could possibly be...

I am cautiously optimistic about next year..

Here's to the end of 2010...

Moga 2011 akan lebih baik.


P.S - To the silent readers, friends, foes, lovers and haters, here's to next year. Terima kasih kerana persahabatan, teguran dan cemuhan anda. You all have helped me experience this life. I am...forever grateful.

This is love part 3


Day 2 of Year End Hols

Monday, December 20, 2010

Missing someone you never met

I have this feeling at the end of the year..

Every end of the year...

But this year it just gets stronger, you know why? Because of Maher Zain...recently I said on facebook, only 2 people can make me cry these days, Aries and Maher Zain...hehe

I think to myself, is it possible for me to miss someone I have never met? But it is..and I miss him, truly, madly and deeply...

I used to read stories about his life, I tell my son about his virtues, I lecture to Aries about how kind he is to his wives...

I miss my prophet, Muhammad s.a.w.

I listen to the song 'Chosen One' and I get choked up.

And I think about what a great loss it is for those who have forgotten a person who was loved most by Allah s.w.t. and yes, that includes me as well at times.

I wish to meet him one day, after this life. But I do not know whether I will ever get a glimpse of him at the rate of how I am living my life...

I realise, after it all...the job, the cars, the money... there is a void in your heart only faith can fill...


Sunday, December 19, 2010

Welcome Home

"If you love somebody, let them go. If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were.."

As I said, I did not want to announce it on my blog until it was confirmed..and yes, it has been confirmed.

Today is Sunday and Aries is here...

I will not be sending him back to the airport today...or next week...or the week after that..

He is home....

Terima kasih Allah...

Thank you Aries..for being brave enough to take this step.

Semoga Tuhan memberkati kita sekeluarga


Friday, December 17, 2010

This is how I love

I know this is super tacky...

But when I heard this song, it resounded ... this is me..this is how I love. I do not know about Aries, heck there are issues between us which I do not see it fit to mention here...

But this is how I love.

Cintaku 'kekal'. So I need to just type the lyrics down.

Kekal - Spider

Tidak percaya dan pernah aku menduga
Kasih terpisah dalam sekelip mata
Sukar untukku dimengerti
Berat untuk difahami
Mengapa mawarku berduri

Kau pelangi mengiringi gerimisku
Kau, kau di dalam hatiku
Kekal dalam ingatan
Kau semangat kasihku
Kekal sepanjang zaman
Kira kau dan aku
Satu hari nanti
Akan bersatu

Biar terbakar
Jiwa diperjalanan
Aku bersumpah pulang ke pangkuan

Kau cahaya menyinari duniaku
Kau, kau di dalam hatiku
Kekal dalam ingatan
Kau semangat kasihku
Kekal sepanjang zaman
Kira kau dan aku
Satu hari nanti
Akan bersatu..


How do you love?

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

spider - kekal

I do not own this video, it is copyrighted to its owner.

I just love this song..

The lyrics are so meaningful...

Our new investment for Airiel and future kids - Grolier Education Series Part 1


I was taking about telling you all about me and Aries' new investment for Airiel's education, but never got around to telling you the details. So here goes, it is the "Grolier Education Series".

What intrigued me in the first place is the books in the series, it reminds me of my childhood in UK, the books get you interested in reading and learning and are not exam oriented or whatever like here kan. These kind of books cultivated my life-long passion for reading.

I am going to tell you the details of what was given to me:-

These books are what I am using on Airiel now, the beginners books. There are 4 books in all, full of pics and wonderful colours and as you can see, the titles of the books speak for themselves. I am currently on the book 'Words that name things'. I only sit down with him and teach him names in 1 page a day which is about 5 mins.

 These are the "Story of A day" series. There are 4 books in all, each showcasing the seasons i.e. Winter, Summer, Autumn and Spring. There are about  366 stories in the 4 books, which is enough for a year. And the books are about 1 page long sahaje. I read one story to him everyday before bedtime which takes about 5 mins. The Grolier person says that it is not about him reading the words (because Airiel is too young) but him 'hearing' us speak the words. You know how our kids can imitate anything we say at the moment kan? Mcm itulah

 I think this is for Airiel much later, maybe when he is 3 + or 4+ so am not currently using them yet, but I read them myself and they contain information as per the title of each book, in short sentences and colourful images. It is in a Question and Answer form. This I think I will start letting him read or read it to him when he starts asking me weird questions.. hehe

This is perhaps the best feature of the education series, the logico board. I will explain to you guys how to use in my part 2 of this post. 

 These are the 'I Wonder Why' series. They have answers to practically everything hehe. Like 'Why do spiders spin webs?' or 'Why can't ostriches fly?' So cool!!, also reserved to when airiel is a little older

My pc won't let me turn these pics somehow...shessh..but anyways this is another interesting series i.e. the "Help Me be Good Series". As you guys can see above, the series teaches kids that its bad to lie,bad to break promises and not only that, it tells the kids why by putting it all in short story form. I have read around 2 to Airiel, on why it is bad to have tantrums and why it is bad to lie.

Together with the above series, we are given a parental guide on how to maximise the use of the books and sing along songs on being good!!! 

Hehe, this is the free bookcase that came with the set. It's a DIY so I am quite proud because I did it myself and Airiel helped as well. 

You know how we can spend 2k+ on PB corsets lah, bags lah, shoeslah, makeuplah, gadgets etc. so I am sure we can invest on this set of books as well.

The receipts you get can be used for tax purposes and you can pay by installments. I am paying RM125 a month for 2 years for this set.
Why do I think it is a worthly investment? because I can use it not only for Airiel but for my other future kids as well. I have definitely seen a difference in using this system on Airiel. He is learning a lot of words fast!!! and is not more interested in books than he does toys..

If you guys are interested in purchasing this set for your kids (its never too late to start getting your kids to love books instead of incessantly watching tv), please leave a comment here or e-mail me at ok?

Updates on how to use the Logico system later.

Monday, December 13, 2010

Airiel updates

I have not uploaded anything on Airiel for a while..

Sometimes I feel so possessive over him that I just do not feel like know what I mean..Airiel is like a secret I want to keep all to myself...

But he is just too cute lah...!

Ok, let the pics do the talking:-

Okay, so the pics are blur..but this is him speaking to God knows who on the telephone. He says.."hello, siapa tu?" 

 Everytime we take him to the playground, he does not want to play with anything else but the swing..a full 40 minutes on the swing I tell you!!!

 And Abah joins in on the fun!!!

 This is his cheeky face...hehe

 He likes bahulu and all manner of traditional kuih...

And he truly does 'light up my life'...

How mama and Abah loves you Airiel!!

May Allah bless us all!!!!

I actually cannot wait to share my good news with you guys..!!! tapi wait until sunday when I KNOW it's not a dream ok?

A long time coming...

Me and Aries are ecstatic at the moment...

This indeed, has been a long time coming...

I do not want to announce it yet.... because I'm afraid of jinxing this whole thing ...

Will announce when the time is right...

Pinch me someone...because this cannot be real...!!!

Hehehe *gelak sampai terguling-guling*

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

In a bad mood

I am in a bad mood.

I remember a friend telling me that I am 'outrageous'.

And I asked her back :- 'You mean like Kimora outrageous?'

She said :- 'Who is Kimora?'

I said : - 'You have no business describing me as outrageous if you don't know who she is '

Har har har.........


I wear hijab, and baju kurung is my staple outfit...but I also know that I say things that people won't normally expect people who are dressed like me to say.

I am not in the best of moods today:-

1. I am wearing my PB corset and I overate, so now I can't breathe. I mean, they say you don't have to diet makan PB ni, but hell, how much can you eat if your stomach is constricted by a 'waist nipper' to half its ordinary size?;

2.  I am itching to take the corset off right, but then I remember Aries' shaking hands as he was paying the 2+k after I promised him that wifey is gonna look all slim and hot for him to play with..sheeshhh;

3. I still have not picked up my 'triple excellent'. Sampai je area Mid Valley aritu.. jem semacam..this week wedding plak..bilalah nak ambil ni?

4. There are 13 summonses in Myeg courtesy of blackie who is now with the FIL. Belum pergi Balai Polis check, belum pergi JPJ check. Damn...brape ribu nak kena byr ni?...ada yg dah keluar waran tangkap ke ni? Bad moodnyee bila fikir...

5. I have a fear of high heels after I fell down the office stairs, so skrang pakai slipper pergi mana-mana. I look like a duck, walk like a penguin and I miss wearing high heels..tapi bila fikirkan sakitnya fracture 2 of my toes...pakai balik slipper..haisshhh..

6. Aries dah jadi the only lawyer kat tempat dia kerje..does that mean he can never take leave? What about family time? I thought he is entitled to 21 days leave or is it 14 days in a year? Aper kes? Nak marah..nak marah...

7. Aper kes ni? bomoh bomoh orang? Pakai minyak ularlah, bomoh boyan lah? Dah lupa wujudnye Tuhan ke? Sounds like a scene out of science fiction movie? I kid you not ... this thing actually happened, kalau nak keji pun kejilah tp janganlah nak melampau sgt...kalau sesiapa yg bertanggungjawab ni susah nak mati esok, tolongla jangan nak cari aku atau Aries mintak ampun...kitorg sukejer tgk ko susah mati faham?

And I could go on and on about how shitty life can be these days...but then I look over to the picture of Airiel and Zack which I have on my desk..beristighfar sekejap, I feel strangely content.

I know just what will do the trick.... "A soy toffee nut latte"


Tahun baru ini, kena berazam utk menjadi hamba yang lebih bersyukur.


Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Revamping big time...

I am in the midst of revamping my blog...

Due to many requests, I have decided to categorise my links to blogshops properly, senangla you all nak click semua kan?

Believe it or not, all the blogshops tu are in my Google Reader, so I see all their updates daily.

For anyone who wants to know how to utilise their google reader, you can pm me or leave me a message here.

Kalau malas, just use my blog tu click lah...


Sunday, December 5, 2010

Duit keluar mcm air

Sekarang ni memang musim duit keluar lah...

I mean...the price of RON97 has gone up by 15 cents per litre? RON95 by like 5 cents per litre?

And we're all so quiet? I wonder how come masa Pak Lah announce naik minyak kita naik marah gila-gila.

Apalah agaknya si Najib ni mendrumkan kita ni semua sampai kita terima aje cam org bodoh.


Money draining list:-

1. Stevie's Road Tax and Insurance - 2K ++

2. Mackie's repair costs - 1750

Just to name a few....

Meanwhile, Aries is on his way back to Tanah Merah...reasons of which shall be undisclosed.

All I can say is... if I find out who the culprit for all this nonsense is...I swear I will beat the crap out of them myself...

You may think you are great...but God is greater...

BTW, me and Aries ada jumpa tempat makan best kat Kampung Baru, maybe will blog about it later...

and my 'triple excellent' dah siap...cuma tinggal nak amik je...

pics up later k?

Tata and Amin.