Had to rush like mad for a trial on Thursday (no, not me with the bosses, my own trial. Yikess!!!). What made it worse was that:-
(a) There was also a hearing in the Federal Court on the same day so finalise finalise the Core Bundles, arrange boxes for bosses bla bla bla;
(b) There was also a hearing in the Court of Appeal. We asked for an adjournment but surprise surprise, we did not get one. They only agreed to stand it down until 12.00. An adjournment requested because we were caught in the FC were refused and we only knew it was refused on Tuesday. What does this mean? It means we had to finalise our submission and bundle of authorities all by Wednesday, before the hearing on Thursday.
See how everything seems to fall on a Thursday? Get my drift? At the same time, I had overdue opinions (2 in fact this same week, 1 of which is still overdue by the way....hishhh), settlement agreements, blah blah blah...Shesshhh
Verdict : Lack of sleep + never ending adrenalin rush + not enough time with Airiel = Tired and slightly miserable
I hate to admit it but I sort of miss Aries as well. Eheh
And the loss of Steve Jobs. What a legacy he has left. Everybody has read his Standford Speech after his passing. I read that speech in late 2005 a few months after he gave it. At the time I could not understand the hype surrounding a Mac, and despite his speech, it was still some time until I converted (yes, converted) to a Mac and never looked back.
But what he said touched me. I have the video in my Mac playlist I keep on Youtube. At times when I feel that I am lost, I would listen to it. And I would wake up the next day with renewed vigour. Let me me share with you the parts of his speech which I cherish the most:-
"Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life."
"Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle."
"Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart."
"No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true."
"Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary."
And his speech eventually gave me the inspiration to name this blog 'Living my life...my way.."
Thank you Steve.
You will be missed.
And what a week this has been...