New look

Like the new outfit?

It's time for a change I think...

I'm no good with doing custom changes and all..so I used the ready made templates prepared by blogger.com and voila..! it's done.

I have realised these few months that I am much stronger than I thought...and a lot tougher than I look

I hope my road to recovery will go well and smooth..

Here's to new beginnnings... Amin

Meaty Meatworks

Last week, me and Aries gi makan lunch kat meatworks. This place has gotten rather rave reviews at flogs (food blogs) and was recommended by friends and colleagues alike.

So we went.

Pics below:-

Aries hated the beef carpaccio, but I loved it

This was my sirloin tp Aries amik..sebab he hated his T Bone Steak

Aries' T Bone which I ended up eating

Aries not really keen on the food

I was ok with the food, but was not impressed by it.

Maybe my expectations were too high, maybe I ordered the wrong things.

They say the burger sedap, tp tak try lak haritu.

Try meatworks if you are a meat lover

Long Overdue Update on my foodie obsession

This is gonna be a long one, I was away from work until Tuesday taking some time off. Shall not disclose where. Life goes on, and I have to do that as well. So that's that.

Anyways..a few weeks back, me and Aries went out and tried this Thai Restaurant in Taipan USJ for lunch..it has a red sign and that was all I can remember. I remember driving pass it so many times with Aries when we used to live together in USJ before we got married (scandalous tak statement ni? jgn jeles and jgn terburu-buru bersangka buruk ye? Sila tanya kalau gatal sgt nak tahu) but we never stopped by, sbb nampak mahal je restoran ni.

So then  off we went there for lunch one weekend...hehe.. pics below:-

This is the Kerabu Kaki Ayam... Sgt sedappp!!!

Tomyam was nothing to shout about

The lala was not that fresh really..

I loved the garlic kailan...it was crunchy and fresh

The chilli chicken was superb..!! we were both ogling over the flavour

Aries' drink

My trusted ol' lemon tea

It was a mixed experience really, some of the dishes were really good and some were so terrible, it was almost inedible to us..

But I would go here again, just choose the right dishes next time..! Hehe

From the Beginning to the End

I have loved the same person twice

The only thing I can think about is having him here with me

I dont care if he doesn't love me..or if he doesn't remember how he used to love me

I just want him here with me

Yes, you said I'd pay a price

I'll pay that price...

I love you

I have until now

And I will continue to love you

Just keep me in your memory

Because I'll carry our memories to my grave

My favourite Nasi Lemak

I have a dirty little secret..

It's my favourite nasi lemak place. I never tell anyone about it because I know its good and I don't want to see people I know there when I go there to eat.

Jahat tak? I am so selfish I know. But I have come to my senses..good things should be shared.

So here it is..

Yum Yum

This is the stall and the makcik is there..hehe

The paru paru cili padi is to die for

Where is it?

It's in Giant Shah Alam, one of the stalls there. Mak Cik ala muka muka mamak skit jaga.

Me and Kak Intan Azliana used to go here every friday for our outings.

Hehe..

Alamak terliur la bila pikir balik..

Hehe

Leonardo Dicaprio

Kebelakangan ni tak berapa ada mood nak update menda substantial...

Have not been so well, have not been in the right mind... the works..

This past weekend I got Stevie with its Neugen RR kit or sumthing..it no longer looks my original Stevie but I am happy anyways.

I managed to watch 2 movies, Eclipse and Inception, hence the title of this post..

I have managed to really watch Leonardo Dicaprio blossom from being the actor that was in Titanic to an actor who have managed to take on really tough, layered and complex roles.

Movies like Shutter Island and Inception have really made me a fan of him as opposed to let's say, team Edward or Jacob in so far as the Twilight series are concerned.

I don't know, I have nothing against the Twilight franchise...maybe I have passed the age of going gaga over love stories which have no basis in reality (yes, call me a pessimist) or hot 18 years olds (Jacob is hot though). I just favour good content and good material these days.

I have become a fan of Leonardo Dicaprio, I admit.

Go watch Shutter Island and Inception. They will make you think..

Everything Burns

She sits in her corner
Singing herself to sleep
Wrapped in all the promises that no one seems to keep
She no longer cries to herself
No tears left to wash away
Just diaries of empty pages
Feelings gone astray
But she will sing
Till everything burns
While everyone screams
Burning their lies
Burning my dreams
All of this hate
And all of this pain
Burn it all down
As my anger reigns
Everything burns

Walking through life unnoticed
Knowing that no one cares
Too consumed in their masquerade
No one sees her there
And still she sings

Till everything burns

While everyone screams

Burning their lies

Burning my dreams

All of this hate

And all of this pain

Burn it all down

As my anger reigns 

Till everything burns

Watching it all fade away

Everyone screams

Airiel Updates

This one's about my Airiel.

I have not been writing about him for a while.

My oh my, how he has grown..

(i)      His favourite word is 'Nak!!!'

(ii)     He is currently going through his 'I am too busy to eat' phase

(iii)    His other favourite words are 'Mama', 'Abah' and 'Dah'

(iv)    He has this habit of rolling off this huge bolster I keep on the bed to the floor, but will try and pick
          it up and put it back when I ask him to

(v)     He is now tall enough to open and close doors (can you believe it?) and will always oblige when I  
         ask him to close the door

(vi)    Loves fruits, especially grapes

And these are just some of the things that amuses me to no end...hahaha

He truly is the light of my life...especially during these dark days..

Mama sayang Airiel..

Arrival of the loot

My shoes are here!!!!

'On Cloud 9 for a moment'

Back to reality...

Things are not so good..

I honestly have not even remotely recovered.

As I have said, I do not know whether recovery is even possible.

And I feel ujian akan makin bertubi-tubi...

I feel like curling up into the fetal position and just sleeping forever..never needing to wake up..

I do not know how to go forward from where I am at the moment..

Let me sleep and think about it boleh?

P.S - Huda, where are you? Apsal call hp off?

King of sorrow

I'm crying everyone's tears
And there inside our private war, I died the night before
And all of this remnants of joy and disaster
What am I supposed to do

I want to cook you a soup that warms the soul
But nothing would change, nothing would change at all
It's just a day that brings it all about
Just another day
Nothing's any good

The DJ's playing the same song
I have so much to do
I have to carry on
I wonder if this grief will ever let me go
I feel like I am the king of sorrow
King of sorrow

I suppose I could just walk away
Will I disappoint my future if I stay
It's just a day that brings it all about
Just another day
Nothing's any good

The DJ's playing the same song
I have so much to do
I have to carry on
I wonder if this grief will ever be gone
Will it ever go
I am the king of sorrow
King of sorrow

I'm crying everyone's tears
I have already paid for all my future sins
There's nothing anyone can say to take this away
It's just another day
Nothing's any good

I am the king of sorrow...
Indeed

Devastation sets in

Hati kini berkecai-kecai.

This is the 2nd time this has happened.

I do not know whether recovery is possible.

I do not want to be the fool twice over.

Keikhlasan yang dicari selama ini dan saya ingat telah ditemui sekadar sandiwara semata-mata.

Ohhh, hati ini sangat penat.

Sungguh tidak berdaya rasanya.

Berat lagi mata-mata yang memandang, maka betapa beratnya bahu kini terpaksa memikul.

I shall not be writing for a while.

Maybe for a long time.

I do not know.

Jalan Jalan Cari Makan

Kitorang agak berjalan-jalan semasa weekend aritu..

Sheesh, the internet collection in the office here is a freaking *itch.

Missing the old days..

On Saturday, we went to Times Square as I had to replace my Digi Broadband device. RM299 gone down the drain thanks to little Airiel who bent it a weird 90 degrees. Confirm rosakla kan.

We went to VeryThai there.

Hehe.. pics below:-

This was the kerabu mangga. Honestly, this is one of the best kerabu mangga I have tasted. Sour with sweet flavour and the mango was firm to the bite and was not soggy

This was the mini spring roll, it was sweet and had just veggies in it. I preferred the meaty spring rolls in Pho Hoa

The minced chicken fried rice. I asked for it to be extra spicy. I was in tears when I finished eating it. It was just so so spicy. Sedap!!!

Aries makan paad thai, muka stress fikir pasal kena buli ngan bos.

Sabtu malam, we decided to go eat Nasi Telur Berlada kat Klang, arwah Zack's fave place dulu, Aries kata.

Tak sempat tangkap gamba nasi dah habis hehe..Sedap wooo

P.S - congratulations Aries for being brave enough to walk away and move on to better things. Tak matila tak keje kerajaan hahaha...on to better things ehh? Let's celebrate when you get back. Screw your *UP. If he is as big of an idiot as I think he is, things would probably catch up with him sooner or later? Hint-hint

This cannot be worth it

I had an uninterrupted weekend with Aries...We laughed and fought and played with our son. We were a normal family. I see him happy.

As he was on his way back on Sunday night, he gave me a call..his *oss has apparently told someone or god knows how many people that he is on drugs. This was his *uperior. Someone who is supposed to guide, teach, protect, aid...

I have known him for 6 years and have been married to him for 3. He does not even smoke.

Ini adalah fitnah...dan fitnah itu lebih teruk dari membunuh.

And I realised, nothing about his life was normal. He goes to JB for a job that pays him nuts, away from me and Airiel, with a *oss that wants to destroy him. Yes, destroy is the word. He wants to disgrace Aries. He wants Aries to quit. He goes to work everyday not knowing what his *oss is going to do to him. He is in court for 3 quarters of a day while his *oss schemes on how to get him fired, or how to drag him towards disciplinary proceedings. Every morning, he never knows what kind of phone call he is going to get from his *oss. Maki dan maki dan maki lagi. I know it.. I know it all..

And this morning I saw an sms his *oss sent someone which was forwarded to me. I was smack dab in the middle of a continued trial.

My face changed, my heart sank, my hands clenched into fists.

For the first time in my life, I feared for Aries. I feared for his safety. Someone is out to get him, and we all know who.

This cannot be worth it. What is this nonsense? Apa semua ini? How do you work in these kind of conditions?

This cannot be worth it. Aries may not be the most perfect person out there, but this is just too much.

I told him, be the bigger man and walk away. He is not the 1st person victimised, he is the 5th to leave under this *oss and I doubt he will be the last.

I told him, some people are not worth our time, and this person is clearly one of them.

I do not understand it, he was doing fine under his old *UP, no such nonsense as this.

I shake my head, blink away my tears and continued with my trial.

I know Aries is the bigger man but it does not sadden me less to see him walk away from something he loves so dearly.

Everything happens for a reason. Sabarlah Aries.

This cannot be worth it.

SKII

I promised that I would update you guys on how my skincare regime with SKII is working out so far...I have tried it for about a month I think. So here goes.


These are the list of products that I use:-

This is the cleanser. I used to use L'oreal cleanser (it was the red one) but SKII was way more suitable for me. It made my skin supple, but did not overdry it (I have very dry skin - I still remember Adis telling me in honors class dulu 'Iza, kulit dahi ko mengelupas lagi laaa....'hehe). 

This is the toner I use after cleasing. When I first used it (the first 2 weeks) it stung my skin quite a bit but now it is just cooling and refreshing. I also realise that my pores (I have quite an issue with big pores) are getting smaller! How lovely!!

This is the magic essence. The pitera that they say will stop the aging effects and all. To tell you the truth, the product smells quite a bit like yeast...so its a bit stinky when you put it on. But I tell you, I saw immediate effects after using this essence for 2 or 3 days. I have an uneven skin tone, and this evens out my skin tone almost immediately. 

This is my fave product from SKII at the moment, their new Aqua Physics line. It moisturizes my skin perfectly. No more dry skin for me!!! 

This is the loose powder I use. I use ZA compact powder which I love and which I do not plan to change. But I love how the loose powder provides a lovely, slightly shimmery effect on my skin.

I love the SKII products I am using and would recommend them definitely! Try their trial pack if you do not want to buy the huge 150 ml skincare bottles and products which only retails at RM99. I bought them a month ago and I still have not finished them! Lasts ehh?

Best of all, I get to dump the L'oreal products which apparently supports Israel! Sheeesh...Another step closer to boycotting products affliated with Israel.

PS - I am absolutely excited about Aries' upcoming project!! Good luck Aries! Wifey supports you all the way..!!!

Sori naik lori

I did not want to do it initially.

Let him fight his own battles I thought.

But too much is too much and something's got to give.

I have done what I can.

Let's see what happens.

Let this family reunite.

People out there, please be careful of whom (or whose wife in this case) you offend.

It might come back to haunt you.

Ya Allah, lindungilah keluarga kami.

Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin.

Let the war truly begin.