Almost back to normal

Alhamdulillah,

Yesterday Airiel has started sleeping with me again since my feet is getting better after Atok jampi sini sana hehe..

My mood immediately improved, I realised. I have been sleeping seperately from Airiel for quite sometime and then nenda perli and says I must be happy sebab dapat tidur lena.

A misconception indeed. I mean I thought that it would be the case. But when you wake up, there is a sense of emptiness sebab I know Airiel is supposed to be with me. There is that empty side to the bed that I never encroach onto, even in my sleep because my subconscious knows that thats where Airiel is supposed to be.

He was a part of me during those 9 months when I was pregnant, but now even more than ever, Airiel is a source of strength for me. Whenever I curse my clients for making my life so darn difficult, I remember him and look at his picture and the anger just melts away.

Whenever me and Aries fight or Aries does something which I think I could never forgive him for, I look at Airiel and I realise that as much as I feel like killing Aries, he is half of what Airiel is and if it was not for our love, Airiel would have never been brought into the world. And so I forgive Aries.

They say 'anak itu pengikat kasih' and they are right. I tolerate so many things that I would not have in normal circumstances because of little Airiel.

I know that at the end of the day, when I come home and see him running towards me (he does you know..its so sweet!!!) and I hug him and he kisses my cheek (which he does everyday when I come home), things are not so bad, because he is in my life.

Allah bless you my little Airiel for blessing my life so.