Suffer the Little Children...

"But a mermaid has no tears, and therefore she suffers so much more" ~ Hans Christian Andersen

1. Kids in Syria dying every day because of the fight between the military and the democrats;

2. Kids in Palestine dying every day, being shot at deliberately, bombed to pieces like my little Aisha; 

3. Kids in Rohingya dying of hunger, malnutrition, watching their parents being massacred; and

4. Today, that 5 year old beautiful little girl who was being abused by her own mother passed away.

WHAT THE HECK IS GOING ON?????

So so down...

Online Shopping 2013 - I like Igloo

I have bought a couple of stuff offline lately so I haven't been posting it up here. Sorry guys.

I bought one recently.

The Veronika top. Maybe I am just into the tweed pattern these days. Its long sleeve and acceptable length (I am not going to tuck it in when I wear it like in the pics).

Cute I say.

It's from LikeIgloo

Last Kiss

"When someone is crying, of course, the noble thing to do is to comfort them. But if someone is trying to hide their tears, it may also be noble to pretend you do not notice them" ~ Lemony Snicket

Oh where oh where
Can my baby be
The Lord took her away from me
She's gone to heaven so I have got to be good
So I can see my baby when I leave this world

We were out on a date in my daddy's car
We haven't driven very far
There in the road
Straight up ahead
A car was stalled
The engine was dead
I couldn't stop so I swerved to the right
I'll never forget the sound that night
The screaming tyres
The busting glass
The painful scream that I heard last

Oh where oh where
Can my baby be
The Lord took her away from me
She's gone to heaven so I have got to be good
So I can see my baby when I leave this world

When I woke up
The rain was pouring down
There were people standing all around
Something warm running in my eyes
But somehow I found my baby that night
I lifted her head
She looked at me and said "Hold me darling just a little while"
I held her tight, I kissed her our last kiss
I found the love that I knew I would miss
But now she's gone even though I hold her tight
I lost my love, my life that night

Oh where oh where
Can my baby be
The Lord took her away from me
She's gone to heaven so I have got to be good
So I can see my baby when I leave this world

Boycott Israel - Petitions to Sign

"Few will have the greatness to bend history itself, but each of us can work to change a small portion of events. It is from numberless diverse acts of courage and belief that human history is shaped. Each time a man stands up for an ideal, or acts to improve the lot of others, or strikes out against injustice, he sends forth a tiny ripple of hope, and crossing each other from a different million centers of energy and daring those ripples build a current which can sweep down the mightiest walls of oppression and resistance" - Robert F. Kennedy

Hello readers.

The BDS movement not only boycott Israeli products, it also aims at a complete boycott on Israel culture.

Rihanna is scheduled to perform in Israel and BDS has started a petition on causes to pressure her to back out.

Other artistes have backed out on performing in Israel before due to these petition so it is extremely effective.

I need you to sign it.

Please go here.

There is also a call to boycott the Red Sea Jazz Festival which is going to be held in Israel soon. Please go here to see the boycott movement. This boycott was started from within i.e. from Israelis who are against the apartheid regime.

It is free and you do not need to pay anything. It will just take a few seconds of your time.

Thank you for your help.

Raya 2013 - Raw Reality

"Making a decision to have a child - it is momentous. It is to decide forever to have your

heart go walking around outside your body" - Elizabeth Stone

Raya 2013 is different to say the least.

And every raya after this one will never be the same. Atuk and Nenda waited until after visiting Akif before they went back to Kuala Kangsar. Atuk tells me he wanted to wait until I was gone to Mars before going off, but I knew...  I knew he wanted to visit Akif too.

My father, he buried Akif. He carried Akif on his lap from the hospital all the way to the cemetery. He kissed Akif before putting him in the liang lahad. There are times when Nenda tells me he would just burst into tears, missing Akif. Random moments, like when he is driving or when he is working on our fish pond at home. He would just cry and cry.

And me? I am different. So many things about me are no longer the same. I am no longer the same person I was before. That much I know.

Raya was hard for me. Akif's gravestone was up and ready and looks pretty. The graveyard was brimming with people. In a way I was glad that I wasn't alone. Entire families showed up to visit the grave of their child at the cemetery reserved for children.

I had Atuk, I had Nenda with me. I had family.

Going back to Mars was hard for me, because there were so many babies around it just intensified the feelings of loss that I had. The events are just too recent for me. Too raw...

Too painful..

Mama knows you're in a wonderful beautiful place little Akif. Somewhere Mama can't even enter in mama's dreams. Mama is only outside of it whenever you come and visit.

Mama misses you so very very much.

Salam Aidilfitri everyone. I hope it is not too late for me to wish you guys.

Take care

Raya Shopping 2013

"When things break, it's not the actual breaking that prevents them from getting back together again.It's because a little piece gets lost - the two remaining ends couldn't fit together even if they wanted to. The whole shape has changed" - John Green 

Hi All,

How are things nearing raya?

Raya is going to be tough for me this year. I am creating a new tradition for myself. Staying in KL and visiting Akif every year before I go anywhere else.

I must, if not I will miss him for the rest of the raya holidays. It just feels so morbid but I need to suck it up.

Anyways, I just bought something for myself for raya.

I figured with all the crap I have gone through, some retail therapy was in order. I have also figured that I really need a cabinet for all my bags now.

I love my bags, looking at them makes me happy. Does that make sense? Hehe.

Later readers. A lot of work awaits.