Showing posts with label melancholy. Show all posts
Showing posts with label melancholy. Show all posts

Thursday, January 23, 2014

Thank You

"Other people are going to find healing in your wounds. Your greatest life messages and your most effective ministry will come out of your deepest hurts" ~ Rick Warren

Hey readers,

From the outset, I state that this is a post about Akif. 

I am glad that my experiences with Akif have helped other mothers. Yesterday I was missing Akif so much, and this email came from one of my readers.


I get 1 or 2 emails like this a day. And it just warms my heart from the inside out.

When I read all these supportive emails, I realise that I am not alone in my grief, that I am not alone in missing my angel child.

When these emails say that I am strong, it makes me believe, even for a moment that perhaps I am as strong as they say I am. 

When my readers say thank you, I just want to say how much I want to thank them back, because they have helped me more than I could ever help them.

All of you make me smile, and even if there are tears, they are tears of joy.

Akif, mama wants you to see how much you have helped others. You have inspired mama so much in your short time here, and now even when you are gone, what you went through with mama helps others.

Mama is so proud of you.

Mama misses you angel Akif, to the heavens and back.

Thank you readers.

Thank you Akif.

Sunday, January 19, 2014

Seniman Menangis...




Kalau kau berada di belakang tabir menyaksikan
Kau akan melihat seniman ini menangis...

Wednesday, December 25, 2013

Bunga...


Tak usah ditanya
Mengapa ku pilih
Bunga yang mewangi
Terlihat berseri
Yang tak akan nampak di matapun
Berwarni dari lain lain
Segan untuk aku sapa
Walau ada maksud yang ku sembunyi

Pernah ku mencuba terima seadanya
Sayang ia selalu calarkan sudut hatiku
Hingga lelah jiwaku dikecewa
Yang tak mungkin berpaling kembali
Namun ku yakinkan hati Tuhan pasti beri gantinya

Ku mohonkan yang indah padamu
Untuk ku tatap menawar resahku
Kekal aku disitu harungi cinta
Dan aku pohonkan yang baik
Bersantun kata kata tentang cinta
Bicarakan rindu padaku mengharum selamanya

Pernah ku mencuba terima seadanya
Sayang ia selalu calarkan sudut hatiku
Hingga lelah jiwaku dikecewa
Yang tak mungkin berpaling kembali
Namun ku yakinkan hati Tuhan pasti beri gantinya...



Monday, December 23, 2013

Peace..

"If you love someone, tell them today. If you're sorry, don't be ashamed to say it today.
If you're not happy with your life, make a change today. 
Life is short and you may never have the chance again" ~ Idza


Suatu hari nanti, pasti akan bercahaya
Pintu akan terbuka, kita akan bersama
Di situ kita lihat bersinarlah hakikat
Debu jadi permata, hina jadi mulia...

I was visiting Akif the other day and managed to take this picture. I just thought it was beautiful and wanted to share it with my readers.

Have a good week ahead. May Allah bless all of us.

Let the healing begin...may this peace last....

Thursday, December 19, 2013

Somewhere Over the Rainbow


"As far as you can avoid it , do not give grief to anyone. Never inflict your rage on another. If you hope for eternal rest, feel the pain yourself; but don't hurt others" ~ Omar Khayyam




Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high
There's a land that I dreamed of once in a lullaby

Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue
And the dreams that you dare to dream really do come true

Someday I'll  wish upon a star
And wake up when the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
High above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Then why of why can't I...

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

Hiding My Heart

This is how the story went
I met someone by accident
He blew me away
Blew me away

It was in the darkest of my days
When you took my sorrow
And too my pain
And buried them away

I wish I could lay down beside you when the day is done
And wake up to your face against the morning sun
But like everything I've ever known
You disappeared in a daze
So i spend my whole life hiding my heart away

Dropped off you of at the airport
Put a kiss on top of your forehead
Watched you walk away
Then I went on home to my skyscrapers and neon lights and waiting papers
That I call home
I call that home


I wish I could lay down beside you when the day is done
And wake up to your face against the morning sun
But like everything I've ever known
You disappeared in a daze
So i spend my whole life hiding my heart away

Woke up feeling heavy hearted
Im ging back to where i started
The morning rain... the morning rain
Though I wish you were here 
On the same old road that brought me here
Its calling me home

I wish I could lay down beside you when the day is done
And wake up to your face against the morning sun
But like everything I've ever known
You disappeared in a daze
So i spend my whole life hiding my heart away
I can't spend my whole life hiding my heart away...

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Jar of hearts

This is my current fave song, I liked this before it became such a meteoric hit. The lyrics touch me...
Although I am comfortable with how I am feeling these days and the healing process is moving along, the lyrics was once 'me'.

And I think this song applies to everyone, family members who takes advantage of you, friends who do not appreciate you, spouses who betray you, bosses who undermine you. It is an empowering song indeed. At least that's what is was for me.

Jar of Hearts


No, I can't take one more step towards you
Because all that's waiting is regret
Don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I love the most

I learned to live half a life
Now you want me one more time

Who do you think you are
Running around leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Who do you think you are

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms


I learned to live half a life
Now you want me one more time

Who do you think you are
Running around leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Who do you think you are

It took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Because you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

Who do you think you are
Running around leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Dont come back at all

Who do you think you are.....

Here is the video clip of the original song and the song on glee

Glee version : - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m5GmqLFr1Z0

Original version: - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8v_4O44sfjM

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Taking my breath away...

I am enamored with Adele and her songs.

I have been searching for her album high and low but cannot find it. Any ideas people?

Read the lyrics to one of her songs. You'll understand why I am now such a fan. This song is called

'Don't You Remember'


When will I see you again
You left with no goodbye
Not a single word was said
No final kiss to seal any sins
I had no idea of the state we were in
I know I have a fickle heart and a bitterness
And a wondering eye and a heaviness in my head


But don't you remember
Don't you remember
The reason you loved me before
Baby please remember me once more


When was the last time you thought of me
Or have you completely erased me from your memory
Because I often think about where I went wrong
The more I do and the less I know
But I know I have a fickle heart and a bitterness
And a wondering eye and a heaviness in my head

But don't you remember
Don't you remember
The reason you loved me before
Baby please remember me once more

Gave you the space so you could breathe
And I kept my distance so you would be free
In hopes that you find the missing piece
To bring you back to me

Why don't you remember
Don't you remember
The reason you loved me before
Baby please remember you used to love me
When will I see you again

She has killer love performances. They simply take my breath away. Hear her here :- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pCJioc KtQ4&feature=autoplay&list=PL62D2950F7D6828D9&index=36&playnext=4